Oh mygosh!!!...wat happen 2 me? Why I feeling do down lately...everythng went wrong for me...everything... Yg jd mangsa is him..kesian die asik kene pujuk aku..im sorie 4 my behavior lately ni.. I didnt mean to make u feel like dat...bt thank u soo much coz tetap brtahan melayan kerenah aku yg sungguh ngada2... I know I hurt u when im in dis kind of atittude bt hmmm...im soooo sorie...hope u'll forgive me dear...
Coz of my bad attitude? I dont know... Tp lately ni aku rase down sgt2..rase rendah diri.. Rase diri ni sungguh tak perfect...deymm!!...so not gud.. Im not dis kind of person b4..wat happened to me? Bile time2 cmni dtg, sesungguhnye I need sum1 yg btol2 bole menenangkan aku, not by listening to me juz by look at her face..dat enuff..im gonna b cool down..tp skang ni aku dh tak dapat lihat n tatap wajah tu lg dh...
Actly almost everynite im cried coz I miz her soooo much...td dok berborak ngh ayah, die tunjuk gmbr2 arwah mak..lg la aku rase sedih...dh 3 bln lebih mak tinggal kn kami...ya ALLAH..kuatkan semangat aku yg ALLAH...
I wanna have a deeper conversation wit someone.. I know I hv him tp die bz. Our time is only at midnite..time tu sure2dh ngantok..then bile brsembg ngn org tgh mamai ni sia2 sbb mmg die tak dgr..haha..cm ckp sorg.. I know if u read dis u not gonna like it coz too open for public but dis is the only way utk aku meluahkan ape yg aku smpn..honestly aku xbanyak menulis skng ni sbb aku xnk if ade cerita2 yg aku tulis ni akan mengecilkan ati die yg sedia ada kecil ni...haha..hmm...hope u xkn gv up ngn i...im not dat perfect n im not gud enuff..byk sgt bende yg kurang dlm diri aku ni..hope die dpt trime aku..n i'll try my best utk berubah mnjd better... I lov u n I dont wanna hurt u tp I dh ter-hurt u..im sorie...forgive me...again...
Byk yg nk d luahkan tp some story hv to remain silence, hv to keep it utk menjage ati org sekeliling..ala..smpn skit sakit utk diri sndr ape salahnye kalau itu bole mengajar n mematangkan n mmenguatkan diri, hati n perasaan..
Ok..ape aku melalut ni?..
see..bile menulis aku lupe jp dgn ape yg brmain dlm kepala otak aku td..xlme, kejap pn jd la..janji mate xbengkak...haha...
nite...
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