KENDURI TAHLIL

BAru selesai membasuh pinggan n periuk belanga brsame kazen yg paling aku rapat.. Ari ni umah aku ade bwt kenduri tahlil utk arwah mak..ari ni genap sebulan arwah mak meyambut panggilan Ilahi.. Jd sume adik2 arwah balik..aku selalunye bile adik beradik n sedara mara berkumpul semua ade..tp ni utk pertama kali sedara mara berkumpul tp arwah mak xde..janggal..aku rindukan kehadiran mak aku waktu sedara berkumpul..sungguh aku rindu..tp aku kne biasekan.. Ari isnin nanti dh nak pose..lg terase ketiadaan arwah..pose pertama..raya pertama.. Bile dh ramai2 cmni kejap2 aku akan lari masok bilik o masok toilet sebab aku nangis..Sebak..rindu..

Tp aku paling terharu bile 'die' pn berdoa n bace yasin n sedekahkan al-fatihah utk arwah mak aku jgk.. Aku tak tau cmne nk brterima kasih n aku xtau nk ckp cmne betapa aku sgt2 menghargai ape yg die dh bwt n akan bwt utk aku..

Hmm..sbnrnye xde mood nak tulis tp juz 4 update skit..

Momento

I DO

I dont know how to describe how i feel inside now..only God knows how am i feeling rite now..how happy am i now..yes u become part of me now..yes u already inside my heart n slowly u push the others slowly away from my heart..im not forgetting them, it juz they r not having a place in my heart anymore.. U almost have full of my heart.. Haha..jiwang lak..but dats how i feel now.. Aku btol2 brterima kasih ngn Tuhan sebab hadiahkan die utk aku..hadiah yg datang tepat pada waktu aku sgt2 memerlukan ubat utk menenangkan aku..waktu2 aku menjunam jatuh sbb kehilangan org yg paling aku sayang dalam dunia ni..he is my morphine..n im addicted to it..

Thanks..i dont know how to say thank to u..how appreciate am i when u willing to come to c me..even xbuat byk aktiviti, juz a muvie n lpk2 but its means alot to me..

I still cant believe yg kte bole jd serapat ni coz kte blaja d tempat yg sama bt never talked to each other, never hangout together..padahal kawan2 kami adalah dikalangan org yg same..his classmate is my fren n my classmate was his housemate..tp tu la..Tuhan dh tentukan waktu kteorg akan jd serapat ni adalah skng walaupn dh lme u saw me secretly..aku jd sungguh terharu...aku sungguh2 berharap yg relationship kami ni akan kekal slame lamenye coz i really2 need him in my life..even kadang2 aku trdetik 'is he the one?' coz waktu sgt sekejap utk kteorg jd serapat ni..

Juz wana tell u dat u become a part of me now n u already in my life now..feel like wana tell the whole world yg aku dh jmpe org..wana tell my frens about us but there is a BUT....

28 mei 1947 - 29 jun 2011 - beloved mum

29 jun 2011..i've lost someone dat i love the most in my life..someone dat brought me into dis world..someone dat took care of me since i was little till the age of 25..EMAK.. She had past away at d age of 64..she died bcoz of cancer.. I still got tounge tite..so many things to say, so many things to write bt..hmm...

Tp bile Tuhan ambil nyawa mak aku, Dia hantar seseorg utk menenangkan aku. Someone who always by my side every second whenever im feeling down, whenever i feel sad, whenever i feel stress..someone who always by my side whenever im going crazy..he came rite on time..if not bcoz of him, tot i might going mentaly ill. Sometimes im feeling guilty. However thankx 4 always b by myside whenever i need u. Im not replacing my mum. Mak will always inside my heart..deep inside..